Quick Message to whom It May concern,

I was not going to make a public announcement of this; however due to another difficulty sent into my life to deal with at this time I have decided to make this known.

First: Congrats to hackers: hacked by
..::0wn3d::.. ..::by cube::.. DEVIANT CHAOS and by d3triment@l

To you in particular I hope you may be willing to read this as I'd really like to open up a bit to you concerning this website and myself please.

My Mother passed away a few weeks ago. Her death has hit me very hard; but so far I am coping adequately. At this time I really do not need any additional stresses in my life.

My web site was recently visited by at least one obviously very intelligent and capable computer Whiz. He/she or they left me a short message on my entrance page and apparently decided to short circuit the Fun Games section of my website too.

I hope they were merely trying to have some fun and I guess to demonstrate to others visiting my website their self-evident excellence in understanding website design-code and their know-how rather than have any particular prolonged malicious intent directed against myself via my website.

It would be wrong of me not to give them their due compliment since they have probably studied and worked hard over time to learn and gain the knowledge and adeptness necessary to be able to do what they were able to do.

They are far smarter than me in this. I must rely on my host services or those that design my website scripts to be capable enough to keep my own web pages secure. Apparently this was insufficient and so since I can not handle this difficult time of grieving for the death of my mother and this particular difficulty together at this time. so I am for the for seeable future closing down the Fun Games and Fun Stuff sections of my site and if need be may have to close down the entire website for an indefinite and possibly long period of time.

These sections I am closing now might some day reopen, but I make no promises. I assume the scripts I was using in the fun Games section is where the breach occurred and so they are closed as of today. I originally got caught up in making those sections and other sections in this website because I wanted to make a kind of home away from home for myself and to share with others. I had this idea to make a site filled with rooms of differing resources and fun stuff to do as a kind of virtual house or home. I built this website in part for this purpose since there has been no realistic hope of myself in life of ever gaining a position financially to ever obtain a house or to own a home or anything like that. This website arose out of desire to someday own my own home and arose as a direct consequence from having gone through long periods of homelessness on the streets of Minneapolis in the 1990's due to my illness. During that time in my life sleeping on park benches and finding my smokes in public ash trays, plus filled with the delusions and terrible paranoia of a schizophrenic unable to competently care for himself or interface with reality very well at all and having no future of any kind ahead that was remotely normal I kept dreaming of being on a beach someday. This daydream helped keep me going through those terrible years until through various interventions, programs, medications and a lot of hard work on my part I succeeded to a better place. This website arose out of that dream of being on that beach of having a home.

Ah well. These are smart guys/gals who hacked into my website. However they have no way of knowing of Mom's Death a few weeks ago; or of having to beg for food on the streets to survive when ones mind is so filled with waking nightmares that one can not function or care for oneself.

Perhaps they mean no more harm than a bit of fun and mischief.

Really it is too bad.

I hope I am right in this and they are not people who would enjoy pushing blind people into onrushing traffic or push someone in a wheel chair over a flight of stairs and laugh to see them fall. I assume they don't normally go around and kick cripples for fun.

Ah well, unknowingly they kicked this cripple at a time most difficult.

All I ask is those responsible please let it be. You have proved you are smarter than myself and there are many in the world who are more intelligent than me; more knowledgeable than me and even of better heart and faith and ethics too probably.

Please I just ask you try to have even more Grace than me and desist from anymore hacking on my website. There are people in this world who really are of an evil, mean or total jerk-off nature so if you must pick on others or demonstrate your prowlness why not play robinhood and direct your efforts to trying to hinder the unjust or ruthless in this world rather than hindering the efforts of a cripple's attempt to relearn to walk.

My third party sites such as Friendsearch and Herbalife etc. are unaffected so far and remain safe to use by anyone; but if needed I will close the entire website down forever.

My Mother is dead; I was crying tonight alone; I switched on my computer and looked at my website and saw the authors of this mischief. I do not need this now. so if their intent was to have me shut down my website forever they may have already succeeded. I'll decide in the next few days; I only hope they did not know how terrible a thing they did in terms of stomping on a persons efforts who is in the lowest percent of the poverty line and has had difficulties to overcome in life that less than 1% of the population can imagine much less understand.

Seems a mean trick to me; but maybe they just didn't know?

Still congrats to them for their achievement in attaining the skills to do this; and this is not sarcasm and really meant for I do know how hard it is to learn and become adapt in a particular set of skills and you have proven your ability and knowledge in this endeavor; but for whatever your reasons, to use your expertise against other humans who have done you no harm; this I will never understand.

Again Kudo's to hackers:

..::0wn3d::.. ..::by cube::.. DEVIANT CHAOS and by d3triment@l

I wish them well and better days for all.
Goodnight for now.
Rick